Last Days
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Last Days

My last two days on Guam were a toddler’s laugh, a theory my father never believed, a bag of pasalubong, and a long, quiet drive home.

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We Get Kodak'd
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We Get Kodak'd

I want the future, trucks and all, but I keep thinking about Rochester, and who gets left in the empty lot when the people at the top refuse to look up.

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Lost in Thoughts
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Lost in Thoughts

I'm a broken record, I know. But some days the haze lifts just enough to remember what my father never got to finish, and what I'm finally doing because of it.

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Is This Me?
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Is This Me?

He's been using AI to help write his blog for a while now, and here he finally explains exactly how, and why the ideas, the memories, and the life behind them are still entirely his.

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The Coward’s Exit
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The Coward’s Exit

Forty years ago I disappeared on someone kind rather than say a hard, true thing out loud. On the silence that costs more than honesty.

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What We Take For Granted
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What We Take For Granted

I never saw a BMW X1 until I bought one. Then a friend came into the bakery to buy bread, and I recognized something on his face I'd only just learned to see.

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The Table Behind the Bakery
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The Table Behind the Bakery

A boy slept on a store counter and died one of the richest men in Asia. On the sachet economy, what I actually pay myself, and the one hour a day that isn't the bakery.

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Finality
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Finality

Waiting in a VA clinic on the island I'm about to leave, I thought I was facing an ending. It turned out to be a bridge, and my turn to finally go live a life of my own.

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I Never Took the Bait
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I Never Took the Bait

A mermaid, a Greek myth, and a grocery aisle. On the labels the internet hands out, and what love actually asks of a person.

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Limitless
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Limitless

On losing the spark, knowing too much, carrying too much, and a line from Van Gogh about the fire we can't always feel.

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The First Critic
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The First Critic

A reflection on grief, film critics, and finding meaning inside the fractured world of the new Supergirl movie.

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Seasonal Changes
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Seasonal Changes

A piece of music from an old film carries me back to a marriage that didn't last, and to making peace with the way every season turns.

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A Boy At My Table
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A Boy At My Table

A boy no older than eight sat down across from me while I was writing, and handed me a whole meditation on innocence, time, and how small an island really is.

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The Pro and the Fourth Session
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The Pro and the Fourth Session

I usually hire professional models, and I'll tell you why. But the pictures I hold onto came from a fourth session with someone who wasn't a pro at all.

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Grace
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Grace

For as long as I can remember, my mother and I have clashed. Then I sat beside her in her grief, and something in me finally set the old weapons down.

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Untitled
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Untitled

Thirty thousand feet over the Pacific, heading back to the island that holds my father, not ready, still turning it all over.

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Starting Out
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Starting Out

At 59, everything feels like beginning again. On new starts, and the one thing that's been mine since my father handed me a Canon FTb in 1979.

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One Ticket
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One Ticket

On a bus climbing toward Baguio, I couldn't shake a question: what if one ticket could carry you the whole way, no seams? A daydream about how travel could actually work.

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Recon First
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Recon First

Thirty-six years after my last concert, I went to see No Doubt at the Sphere, and the anxiety hit before I'd even said yes. On facing fear for the one you love.

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